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Oh BTW, it’s Caturday!
I wonder how some people do it— live this life with so much control and poise. It’s an ability that I want.
I’m trying to be good. I’m trying to take control of my life, but I keep falling from the same mistakes over and over again. I don’t know why it happens, but it does. Over and over. I just happens again. Again and again.
I think how foolish I am, how naiive I am to be so weak. At times, I feel so imcompetent. I can’t/don’t want to do anything [not sure which it is], but be a POTATO.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I just want to cry in the shower as to release that trapped feeling, but the tears don’t come out, and I don’t feel clean after the shower.
I hate how things are just not constant.
It’s just so capricious. I don’t know what to expect; I always expect too much.
I want love. I want friends. The problem is the people are complicated, and I’m too needy.
Tired, exhausted, lethargic.
*sigh*
College is starting soon. Yet, although i don’t feel like I’ve prepared enough for it, I just dwindle my time away. I sit in from of my laptop, and literally do nothing… just browse for random music and on facebook, twitter, and tumblr. I feel like a lazy bum. I don’t feel any motivation at all [which is bad]!
I don’t know.. maybe I just feel so trapped, and I just want to leave for a bit… be free. Why am I like this??!! Why do I just feel so apathetic to everything??!! o.o#
I’m frustrated that Firefox won’t work properly on my laptop,
and it’s only my laptop that it won’t work properly on! =.=” It’s stupid. I’m annoying. Twitter and my college email won’t open/load on it. .__.## wtheck… & Facebook crashes alot with it.
Why is it just like this to my laptop??? -.-” Technology is so complicated.
I’m thinking of switching to Google Chrome, but I hate how Chrome soaks up so much memory. ERRGG… fricken Firefox, why do you have to be so stupid??! Why laptop are you choosing to break down on me??! I just bought you! D:<
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